Step 1

Addiction is a passionate love affair. The first kiss from a new lover lingers on your lips long after the moment is over and, ever after, your thoughts are drawn to him until once again you can experience that lustful descent into mind-numbing bliss. These fleeting moments of ecstasy soon overwhelm any more mundane emotions occurring throughout our daily lives and we frequently become lost in the passions of mere daydreams of the next encounter.

All too soon, the thrill of stolen kisses fades and we beg more of our lovers. Simple joys must be replaced by deeper and longer engagements in order to maintain or supersede the initial level of excitement. Our minds whirl with anticipation of every new experience and we begin to push our boundaries, compromising time, morals, and everything that we value in order to never lose that feeling of falling madly in love.

No relationship can sustain the initial euphoric transcendence of that electric first kiss forever, though, and as we give away more and more of ourselves in the chase, the objects of our devotion begin to leave us wanting. As jealous lovers, we watch others enjoying the thrill we are seeking and we become incensed that we are no longer privy to such pleasures. We view our estranged love despondently, tender memories lingering, taunting us with the disconnection between past rapture and present letdown. Unable to disengage those lustful fantasies from our consciousness, we crumble at the feet of our desire pleading for any shred of empathy – just one iota of compassion – one tiny moment of bliss. We become as children, clinging to daddy’s leg, crying out for validation.

“Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.” – Luke 18:3 NIV.

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3 responses to “Step 1”

  1. carrythemessage says :

    Well said…really well put together. Loved it – that passion that lingers only so long and then we need more of it to get that sensation from the first time. Chasing that cloud. Looking for the “new” again, and failing over and over and over again, but the insanity of still trying keeps at us.

    Ugh. I do recall those days, and not so fondly.

    Thank you for sharing this – wonderful stuff.


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