Sometimes life gets so stupid that you just have to laugh. Often, you will cry, scream or flail about like a stubborn child first, but eventually you’ll get to the point where you crack with all the pressure and just throw your hands up in surrender. Becoming “entirely ready to have God remove all our defects of character” looks a lot like this.
Biggie and I have recently received a few reminders that we need to be more mindful of money matters. A two ton cherry was dropped on top of our little pile of bills today as his truck took its final gasps of breath. Yes, today was very much a “if I don’t laugh I’ll cry” kind of day. I’m rather pleased about it, though, because this immediate crisis has shoved us firmly into the “entirely ready” camp. This is a welcome surrender because the land of “death by a thousand paper cuts” bleeds me dry so much quicker than I ever imagine.
And yeah, this sort of surrender should look familiar. It’s the same exact thing we did in step 1 when we admitted we were powerless. Step 4 reveals just how powerless we are in all sorts of other areas of our lives. In step 5 we finally voice that powerlessness out loud. And in step 6, we remember that we decided that we wanted God to run the show. We can think of this step as another step 1 over another area of our lives – it is surrender, plain and simple. Some days I’m more stubborn than others and sometimes I don’t have to wait for a two ton cherry to fall on me before I’m willing to let God have all of me. The more I practice letting go, though, the less pain I end up put myself through in the holding on.
“Purify me from my sins, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. Oh, give me back my joy again; you have broken me — now let me rejoice. Don’t keep looking at my sins. Remove the stain of my guilt. Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a loyal spirit within me.” – Psalm 51:7-10 (NLT).