Rhime & Reason
I do not even know how many half-written posts I have saved on here over the past year. Some of you have sent messages checking up on me and I appreciate it. The last two… really three years have been… shitty. I mean, I have done amazing things over that time and I’ll catch you all up on that in time. But emotionally… well, there’s only so much vicissitude one person can take.
I am doing absolutely spectacular now. My brain is still compulsively obsessing over a few things, which makes reading and writing anything right now very difficult. But even that is getting better.
Short version: I am getting divorced. Life happens.
Long version: I want to do the best I can to stay on my side of the street. And I am really kind of over telling the story at this point. I still have a lot of anger which stems from my codependent expectations. I am working to resolve it, but that’s one of those lifetime tasks because it was imprinted in me so very, very long ago. The anger only comes out as I recount the tale of the past few years and how it came to this. And right now, I am very happy and very excited to go see my friend who I haven’t seen in far too long, so I REALLY don’t want to get into it.
BUT, I am here. I am sober. I am happy. I am good. I am much better than I have been in a long time. And I will be back here to share my experience, strength and hope soon enough.
In the meantime, I thought I’d let Shonda tell the story for me: