Becoming sober is like recovering from frostbite.
“Becoming sober is like recovering from frostbite.
“Defrosting is excruciatingly painful. You have been numb for so long. As feeling comes back to your soul, you start to tingle, and it’s uncomfortable and strange. But then the tingles start feeling like daggers. Sadness, loss, fear, anger, anxiety—all of these things that you have been numbing with the booze—you feel them for the first time. And it’s horrific at first, to tell you the damn truth. But welcoming the pain and refusing to escape from it is the only way to recovery. You can’t go around it, you can’t go over it, you have to go through it…” – from Carry On, Warrior by Glennon Melton.
Every day, I think I know what I’m going to write for this thing, but every day it’s something different from what I’d planned. This morning I said, “Fine, God, what would you have me write?” Opened up my email & saw the above as part of a blog post I subscribe to… which is cool, because I’ve been wanting to write about early sobriety & all the crazy changes we go through.
But maybe the more important point today is learning to rely on God (as we understand Him). Not just with the big things, but with the little things, too. Recovery is often summed up in three words: “Trust God, Clean House, Help Others.” This is how it works. The third step in recovery is the cornerstone of the new spiritual life we are building. “This is the how and why of it. First of all, we had to quit playing God. It didn’t work. Next, we decided that hereafter in this drama of life, God was going to be our Director. He is the Principal; we are His agents. He is the Father, and we are His children. Most good ideas are simple, and this concept was the keystone of the new and triumphant arch through which we passed to freedom.” – page 62 of the Big Book.
My name is Laurie and I am an alcoholic. Every day I must lean on my Higher Power for the big and the small. In my alcoholic life, I made myself crazy and useless trying to make things work. Today, I don’t have to do that. Today, I can let God guide my thoughts and my actions.